I push the same fucking rock
Up the same fucking hill
Used to think that I'd get over it
I know I never will
If I let the stone roll
I could get a couple kills
But for years I just been pushing it
I'm pushing it still
I'll never escape
I dug this hole too deep to even know when it's day
It just gets darker the longer I stay
I'm a seagull flying into the wind
Just hovering in the air
It looks impressive but I'm not going anywhere
If I ever took half of my own advice
I'd be living my days in a thin disguise
I'd be lying awake in the dead of night
Wondering about another life where I
I push the same fucking rock
Up the same fucking hill
Used to think that I'd get over it
I know I never will
I could lie
I could tell you why
I could jump when you say so, say so
I could lie
I could never try
I could leave it and let go, let go
And I don't know what my problem is
I'm just spinning faster
And maybe that's really all there is
Nothing else comes after
We fight over the same shit
Just the everyday mundane shit
Start another problem at the slightest provocation
It's sickness
We make our beds then play the victims
Try to stay committed but can never go the distance
Everybody's at war with their deepest ache
Keep it hidden deep down while it eats away
If I ever forget why I try to stay
I can trace it all back to the way
I push the same fucking rock
Up the same fucking hill
Used to think that I'd get over it
I know I never will
If I let the stone roll
I could get a couple kills
But for years I just been pushing it
I'm pushing it still
I could lie
I could tell you why
I could jump when you say so, say so
I could lie
I could never try
I could leave it and let go, let go
And I don't know what my problem is
I'm just spinning faster
And maybe that's really all there is
Nothing else comes after
Out here workin on breakin the loop
Holding scars to my chest since a youth
Been more hard on myself than the truth
If the dark couldn't lend you some proof
It got sharp in the depths when I sleuthed
Misdirection unsettled the roots
Where distorted reflections consume
It's a slippery slope
Catching my grip of a glimmer of hope
Never expected the things that they spoke
All that I did was just give 'em the rope
Knocking again to remind of the times
They revise to define, I reply with a nope
Ain't no tryin to cope
Punching the lifelines, they trying to choke
Like it's all an impractical joke
Shit, I push like Sisyphus through dissonance
Somewhere between liminal and limitless
I got a new glimpse at giving this a greater go
Lift the lens and focus more within
I can't defend the grin
We're wearing to pretend
It fends away the things we won't show
Hiding from the things we need to know
The highs will have to complement the lows
No more picking up pieces that I should've left where they fell
Showing more than I could tell
More than escaping
I'm breaking the bounds of the cell
Greater than what they could sell
Left me ashore so I made a home out of my shell
Never been run of the mill
Powered by love and the forces that give me the will
So I know I could conquer the hill but until
I could lie
I could tell you why
I could jump when you say so, say so
I could lie
I could never try
I could leave it and let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go, let
No I don't know what my problem is
I'm just spinning faster
And maybe that's really all there is
Nothing else comes after
I could lie
I could tell you why
I could jump when you say so, say so
I could lie
I could never try
I could leave it and let go, let go
And I don't know what my problem is
I'm just spinning faster
And maybe that's really all there is
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