I'm kinda scared of the academy
I think that my parents are proud of me
I just wish I knew how to be comfortable here
I never feel like I'm allowed to breathe
Rubbing shoulders with these old nerds
Rocking sweater vests in they office hours
Eating hors d'oeuvres while I soul search
Tryna make some sense of the ivory tower
Feeling sober, am I just a coward or a poser?
I don't really doubt it
Or a soldier, books in holsters
But the setting sucks, I can't fight the power
'Cause they write books nobody reads
For these white folks that they tryna please
Recycle all the right quotes
Tryna cite blokes ain't my cup of tea
Eating Chex Mix, feeling helpless
I really miss my fucking ex
It's such a mindfuck 'cause we never talk
Yet we still share a fucking Netflix
And every day, I apologize to the poor kid that we never had
The emotion of the whole thing make me so sick
It's fucking sad what you don't get
Is how focused that I had to be 'cause you couldn't provide
Mad at me 'cause I'm losing my mind
Had to leave at a terrible time
Prednisone, I could barely breathe
Now the pressure gone, but I barely sleep
So I ring the phone, but you don't respond
Had to put myself in some therapy
Now my therapist, she take care of me
Like Sierra Mist, things are clear to see
Now I'm seeing the world in 1080p
Now I'm seeing my world in 1080p
Give me a call when you can
I hope you're doing fine
Well, considering the situation, but at
Least there's clarity on certain things
You have an explanation of the strange, the unusual behavior
Been a few months since the last verse
Since I called you bad words
I went ahead and got my master's
I trimmed the last of my relaxers
So my fro big, got some mo' gigs
My cell phone says I'm roaming 'cause I'm on tour
I want more, forget home, so I go big
I was taking pills up in the bathroom
Ended up alone in grad school
I'm Mario, I busted ass, but my prize is sitting in another castle
In a tight spot, tryna disappear
I would write songs for my friends to hear
I'm tryna keep my lights on
I'm a Nikon, now it's crystal clear
Opportunity is at my doorstep
So I'm moving back up on the horse, like
It's the first time I ever wore specs
Now I do my thing like life's a Rorschach
I see things nobody sees
Since my bee stings turned to double D's
I'm conceding that my feelings is amazing
Now I'm loving me
I could give it up, but where's the fun in that?
Gotta live it up or you will never laugh
Life's a box of chocolates with a lotta options
Gotta keep it rocking like a Rumble Pak
The first letter of your first name
Makes your name emerge when I search things
And it hurts me, but I guarantee
That without you, I'm a better me
Now I see the past with some clarity
Glad I took my ass to some therapy
Now I'm seeing the world in 1080p
Now I'm seeing my world in 1080p
Telling you, "I love you" when he's speaking from his heart and then
Cutting relations when he's following the advice of these people
So it's not easy, but at least you have
That sense of your worth is protected
He's not playing with you hard at will
Struggling, okay?
Doesn't alleviate your own pain, but at
Least you have a sense of what is going on
Okay? Give me a call, sugar
Peace
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