Particles and dust from old worlds settle on me
Surrounded by all that once was and that got me
Spitting out the poison in my mouth
I watch it twist around and hit the ground
I'm trying to figure out if I fit the crown
The deep depression keeping it in check
Shaking off the stress, anger, hatred and the disrespect
What's the price I pay for worrying my life away
Time and time again
Thoughts emerge like a tidal wave
Kind of strange
Self-destruction on my mind again
I remain searching in the clouds for the higher planes
Forgive me please, I don't mean to sound ungrateful
There's a lot of love from friends and I appreciate you
I've been very lucky but I also ran myself into the ground
Moving round without resting then losing out
I feel stupid now
I hold my hands open
A man broken but far from hopeless
I hold my hands out, please forgive me
I feel like a strange energy is with me
In a way this is absurd to feel
You could call it self-righteousness versus guilt
I hold my hands out, please forgive me
I feel like a strange energy is with me
In a way this is absurd to feel
Looking for the right path and I'm searching still
Torn between wanting to be Harvey Dent and Clark Kent
That's why I keep a self-destruct button at arm's length
It's like I'm dealing with a thirst that I can't quench
And playing Snakes and Ladders with a cat and a sharp fence
And looking at the situation that I'm in
With countless silly little pricks praying that I pack it in
Never will I sack it off and give them all the satisfaction
Every day's a battle with myself that I have to win
Handling the pressure, dealing with the nonsense
Feeling like Stan, living with a guilty conscience
We all find it hard to admit when we've done wrong
For instance with business, trying to figure out where money's gone
And the wise man forgives but he don't forget
Cause otherwise he'll be living with a load of regrets
Yo, we should all try swallowing our pride
And telling ourselves tomorrow's gonna be fine
I hold my hands out, please forgive me
I feel like a strange energy is with me
In a way this is absurd to feel
You could call it self-righteousness versus guilt
I hold my hands out, please forgive me
I feel like a strange energy is with me
In a way this is absurd to feel
Looking for the right path and I'm searching still
Still searching, trying to find forgiveness
Even though I know I'm never wrong in my business
Righteous, yet I'm a walking contradiction
Talking to the devil in my head with a prediction
If I never felt pain I'd think that everything was fiction
Nothing here's real, everyone's a vain fake
Where you get stabbed in the back with the pain stake
Just for name's sake, these situations give me brain ache
I played the game with a plain face
And enough tricks up my sleeve to save grace
Remember, a good friend's worth two in the end
You only repent to relapse then do it again
Make the mistake and learn or face your fate and burn
Wait to take your turn or chase and bait the worm
It's debatable, I hold my hands out with a paper bowl
The guilt's unescapable, don't get caught in it
I hold my hands out, please forgive me
I feel like a strange energy is with me
In a way this is absurd to feel
You could call it self-righteousness versus guilt
I hold my hands out, please forgive me
I feel like a strange energy is with me
In a way this is absurd to feel
Looking for the right path and I'm searching still
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